Friday, November 12, 2010

Forgive me SmartSis

Forgive me, My blog ....
For long time, no see !

At times I really feel like sharing things with you but hardly I find time these days ...
Keep your fingers crossed for me, SmartSis notes !

Saturday, July 31, 2010

The 20th turn around the Sun

Today, when the hands of the clock ticked towards the position that would represent 2:30 pm, I completed my 20th turn around the Sun. I have been going round and round in one way in the space for 20 times but still wonder why I've not yet learned well, how to find my way in this universe..still I wander in numerous ways, trying a number of them to see if they're the ones I'm expecting!
You know what ? I somewhat reached to this conclusion that I've not been going through exactly the same path in these 20 times. The 19th cycle was differently made from the 20th. Same thing with the 18th. I don't remember going the same way in the 18th time compared to the 19th one ! ... well ... I actually sensed the correctness of the theorem saying: "Time is the fourth dimension."
Happy birthday SmartSis! Feel good girl !. Feel good to have been granted the bless of life for more than 20 years ! .. light up your eyes by looking at the beauties you created, beauties you enjoyed and the beauties bestowed to you .. Enjoy this blossom of youth !
I always loved the number 20. Especially in school whenever I was given a 20, my eyes would be given a glitter of glory(In Iran students are graded out of 20). Maybe that's why I'm feeling kind of different this birthday.
I had an English teacher who once told us something about the specialness of one's birthday. She said that in one's birthday, there are extraterrestrial powers in that person. The effects of the stars turn into a special way. She told us to treasure our birthdays and ask God for good and big wishes since we're more powerful to bring those wishes into reality!
So I took this advice (no matter I believe about the magic of this day or not) and asked my Lord to make my 21th turn around the sun a BIG step ahead in the road of life.. really a BIG one !

Friday, July 30, 2010


With eager heart and will on fire,
I fought to win my great desire.
"Peace shall be mine," I said; but life
Grew bitter in the weary strife.
My soul was tired, and my pride
Was wounded deep, to Heaven I cried:
"God grant me peace or I must die."
The dumb stars glittered no reply.
Broken at last, I bowed my head,
Forgetting all myself, and said :
"Whatever comes, His will be done."
And in that moment peace was won.

By Henry van Dyke

Thursday, July 1, 2010

Human, from cradle to grave ....

These days, the summer leisure time lets us have some time to ponder about many of fundamental things that the hectic life never lets us contemplate on!..Yeah .. Many of us have probably forgotten the cradle where we got brought up!
The other night was one of those special nights ... Having long long talks with mom till late in the midnight was something I really was really yearning for. Hearing about the days when I hadn't yet got the chance to step into the world, about the difficulty of life, sufferings of a mother giving birth for her first experience and difficulties of bringing up a baby besides having a job, were all the things that put me into deep thoughts... Hearing that I would one day rejoice having been bought a new pair of shoes and listening to the story of my illnesses in childhood and my weakness, all shout to me that "What a negligible creature I used to be!". Under God's shelter and compassion I was granted a pair of human, called parents, who took the burden of bringing me up and so I flourished!
One the other hand ,there are stories of those who ,in stead of flourishing, went down the road of life to where it brought about weakness and debility to them !... It is just the photo album that keeps in his chest, the heroic days of their youth... Those days are even getting erased from the minds of the nearby relatives.
That's it, the most natural process of humanity ! The process of inching your way from the cradle to the grave... Although this process is too natural to be doubted or disbelieved, many of us still forget that " we were nothing at first and finally shall turn into nothing as well ! "

If only we think of our seconds more precious than discarding it in return of the least price ever, if we more cherish the moments we are together and remember that this togetherness wont last forever... If only we remember that heart-touching sentence of the holy Qoran saying : "Creating you in your mothers' wombs, creation after creation beneath three levels of darkness... This is how your Lord is. So where are you heading off to ? "... If Only so, We won't head off to the wrong destination !

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

SmartSis! listening ?

SmartSis !
Be strong! Keep up your spirits girl !... If the loneliest of all, There's at least one who believes in you and backs you as long as you're on the right track!
He's hearing every single word you say and knows whatever of hidden stuff that resides in thy chest! He won't leave a "Hi" without giving back one !

Friday, June 4, 2010

Beauty of the World around

Taking a careful look at the picture above, you'll find a bird's nest on the tree.
This nest belongs to the pair of pigeons which came to live with us in the courtyard since a couple of weeks ago... It was not until a few days ago when we got honored to realize that they're expecting a baby :D It is indescribable how compassionately they care about their only one egg ! My observations have revealed that the male pigeon sits on the egg from early in the morning till around 4 pm while the female finds some time to go and find food for her. Then she gets back and they change places ! She sits on the egg the whole time till the next morning ! ( My father taught me how to distinguish between the male and female;) )

There's such glory in the nature that plays with our eyes while staring at it! ...and right after that we'll reach to the point that How great the creator of all these luxurious stuff must be !

I am quite a lot interested in learning from nature. This interest is so much that I'm even trying a lot to make a connection between my field of study and the nature. And to my happiness, they weren't as apart as I thought they could be. There are algorithms directly inspired from nature rules. Many artificial intelligence subjects have originated basically from learning from nature. Nice enough , we have a cool realm of science called "Bio-inspired computing".
When I think of these beautiful aspects of my field, I start realizing the fact that no other major field would fulfill my eagerness towards engineering and biology, this perfectly !
I was not aware of the correctness of the choice of my field once I chose it and now it's about time to bestow a BIG thank upon the lord who assured me of that when I was uncertain !

Sunday, May 16, 2010

Cry ! Crying's beautiful !

Hi there my Lord, the sole possessor of all lines I write down , the soul of this small part of the web !

Please do me the favor of listening to me once more , put up with Smartsis's nagging for another time and do bestow me a fresh hug of your spirit so that I vitalize my soul by means of it !
Ow Lord , you're aware of the wishes that reside in this chest , you're aware of all divine or devil intentions that live behind all I happen to do in my life, you know about that familiar grudge that turns up to tickle my throat every now and then ..Ow Lord ! you know about that ridiculous story that got born and buried lonely in this heart .... It's in vein to start writing about such stories as you know them in much more detail than I do ! But I do feel good about restating them since it causes me to feel like I'm sharing them with you .. it lightens the weight of them !

Are you again in charge of my recent life ? Do you feel the presence of that usual grudge triggering my tears to drop ? Are you still having that former lovely compassion towards me ? ... Do you still care about this sinful creature ?

If I make one wish out of all wishes in the world , would you promise to grant me that ?
"I shall ask you to give YOU to me " .... having you as a companion , as a carer would be the most precious gift you can ever honor someone with ! ... You just please don't go away ... !